marathons.... marathons are an accomplishment to achieve. not only is the event a big thing, but the preparation to get there is intense. people train like 6-8 months in advance because it is such a big race. at the begining of their training, the runners run shorter distances but basically run everyday. as weeks and months go by, the person starts running a little more each day.. 6 miles...7 miles... 8 miles.... now they're in double digits for their daily exercise. Near the big event, the runner never actually runs the whole 26 miles but runs close to it and than saves their strength for the big day. Each day is a grueling day of exercising but the runner has to keep going to get to their prize.
core is like a marathon. there are the down times where really, all we have to do is the homework which is reading and problems due everyday. along with those are workshops which are mini presentations for the four different classes. some have more preparation than others and usually my team meets up everyday after class to work on these workshops. as the business plan comes closer, the workshops have extremely been getting harder to accomplish because they consist of more calculations, research, thinking and contacting outside people. the week before business plan is known as hell week. teams will literally spend 24/7 together cramped in study rooms doing calculations and writing the 100+ page business plan together with all the research organized by citations and appendices. people will hock up on sugar and energy and camp out at the meeting room and not shower. but.. oh no! when the business plan is to be due on that monday afternoon, we are not done. the following week... oh yes! all 4 finals!!! my question is.. when do we have a break? a break to study? a break to mentally break down??
and after the finals... what next? done right? thats what finals means right?? NOPE. then the following week, we have our final presentation of our project and business plan which is a 20 minute presentation of our company and product and all the work we did over the semester in one dinky little powerpoint presentation. then it is the end. the goal we have been striving for all semester.
in this way, core is like a marathon. with a couple of extra races added in
Monday, March 30, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
mentor
Last night, or more like this morning, I had a nice long talk with one of my friends. I haven't had a real heart to heart in a long time but I really felt like I had to get stuff off my chest and we shared and talked for so long that we didn't realize that it was 4 am already. that's the best feeling.
After talking with this sister, I realized a couple of things.
I have this issue with money and relationships. Ever since I was young, I always gave money to friends. I wouldn't think of it as paying people to be my friends, but I would buy cookies or chips for them at lunchtime. Now, I tend to just spoil people with gifts and meals. I've come to realize that this is because of insecurities in my friendships and relationships. I never thought it was wrong to want to spend the money I had on those I liked. Even my parents would criticize me but for much less things, like buying a $30 birthday present for someone. Once I came to college, I came to realize that people didn't need to spend money to really enjoy each other. As much as I realize that eating is a very common fellowship to do, especially for us BU girls, I realized that we don't have to be fancy and eat 5 star restaurants, though sometimes that's not bad. I need to become a better stewardess of money and learn to enjoy friends without having the need to spend money.
I also realized that I may need a spiritual mentor. Someone who could help me with my struggles and especially help me to grow as a Christian woman. I already have one person in my mind. In reality though, I don't know if I have time or if she will even say yes so I don't know if I should try or not. I'm very confused these days.
I need to learn how to pray more emotionally and passionately. After spring break, I realized, Korean Americans are too prideful. Humble us God. Rub some dirt on our face. Make us realize that we are not that cool.. we buy fake coach purses for goodness sake.
After talking with this sister, I realized a couple of things.
I have this issue with money and relationships. Ever since I was young, I always gave money to friends. I wouldn't think of it as paying people to be my friends, but I would buy cookies or chips for them at lunchtime. Now, I tend to just spoil people with gifts and meals. I've come to realize that this is because of insecurities in my friendships and relationships. I never thought it was wrong to want to spend the money I had on those I liked. Even my parents would criticize me but for much less things, like buying a $30 birthday present for someone. Once I came to college, I came to realize that people didn't need to spend money to really enjoy each other. As much as I realize that eating is a very common fellowship to do, especially for us BU girls, I realized that we don't have to be fancy and eat 5 star restaurants, though sometimes that's not bad. I need to become a better stewardess of money and learn to enjoy friends without having the need to spend money.
I also realized that I may need a spiritual mentor. Someone who could help me with my struggles and especially help me to grow as a Christian woman. I already have one person in my mind. In reality though, I don't know if I have time or if she will even say yes so I don't know if I should try or not. I'm very confused these days.
I need to learn how to pray more emotionally and passionately. After spring break, I realized, Korean Americans are too prideful. Humble us God. Rub some dirt on our face. Make us realize that we are not that cool.. we buy fake coach purses for goodness sake.
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