Finally I am in the west coast.
I realized the night before that I actually have to go back to Mass before my birthday to renew my license because I was dumb and didn't realize that my license expires on my 21st birthday. Frig... this summer is hella expensive. But let the festivities begin... july 8th.... PARTAY!!!
So. After a long tiring day, I realized what a pain it is to be a good host. Not only do you have to pick up the friend at the airport, paying for tolls and gas, you also have to drop everything in your life and entertain your guest too. I'm usually always the host to people since I'm always in Boston @ stuvi hosting friends or at my home as well. I'm so used to it because I usually enjoy hosting people because that's just how I roll. I'm more of a care-taker than a person who gets taken care of.. except by my parents and my future b friend :-)
but i realized what a burden it feels like to be the guest. For people to plan out everything to do for you and go wherever you wanna go and basically be chaueffeurs.. man. it sucks. And these people have to do it again and again as countless people come to visit LA and have all similar friends. Man. what a drag. Well, I guess this is part of friendship.
It was weird leaving Boston. So many people leaving... some things staying the same. Most of the seniors if not all are not really doing anything. None have jobs really and most are just bumming around. It's kind of sad. I would be scared out of my mind if I didn't have a plan. I always need a plan... God has big plans for me.. don't you?
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Friday, May 22, 2009
amigos buenos
What does it mean to be a good friend?
Does a good friend cheer you up while you are down?
Is a good friend someone...
-who is dependable and someone who you can call when you're in trouble?
-who makes who laugh?
-who you can relate to?
-who goes the extra mile to do something nice for you?
-who is caring and thoughtful and remembers that you have an exam the next day?
-selfless and tells white lies only when needed?
-who will stay up with you talking until the sun comes out?
-who is there for you when you are throwing up dinner?
-who will order Chinese because you are craving it?
-who will let you eat the extra piece of cake although you only had a bite?
I can't say that I am a good friend or a bad friend. I am inconsiderate at times. I offer physical services and things but sometimes I feel that I lack the mental capacity and social abilities to really connect with people. There are people who you'd think would be a good friend but turns out not to be. I hope I can overcome that fake image and be a good friend externally and internally. I have learned to care about my friends a lot and it shows through the lengths I go to get them something to make them happy. Now I must learn to do this nautrally and be confident in maturing my relationships.
Does a good friend cheer you up while you are down?
Is a good friend someone...
-who is dependable and someone who you can call when you're in trouble?
-who makes who laugh?
-who you can relate to?
-who goes the extra mile to do something nice for you?
-who is caring and thoughtful and remembers that you have an exam the next day?
-selfless and tells white lies only when needed?
-who will stay up with you talking until the sun comes out?
-who is there for you when you are throwing up dinner?
-who will order Chinese because you are craving it?
-who will let you eat the extra piece of cake although you only had a bite?
I can't say that I am a good friend or a bad friend. I am inconsiderate at times. I offer physical services and things but sometimes I feel that I lack the mental capacity and social abilities to really connect with people. There are people who you'd think would be a good friend but turns out not to be. I hope I can overcome that fake image and be a good friend externally and internally. I have learned to care about my friends a lot and it shows through the lengths I go to get them something to make them happy. Now I must learn to do this nautrally and be confident in maturing my relationships.
Monday, March 30, 2009
marathon
marathons.... marathons are an accomplishment to achieve. not only is the event a big thing, but the preparation to get there is intense. people train like 6-8 months in advance because it is such a big race. at the begining of their training, the runners run shorter distances but basically run everyday. as weeks and months go by, the person starts running a little more each day.. 6 miles...7 miles... 8 miles.... now they're in double digits for their daily exercise. Near the big event, the runner never actually runs the whole 26 miles but runs close to it and than saves their strength for the big day. Each day is a grueling day of exercising but the runner has to keep going to get to their prize.
core is like a marathon. there are the down times where really, all we have to do is the homework which is reading and problems due everyday. along with those are workshops which are mini presentations for the four different classes. some have more preparation than others and usually my team meets up everyday after class to work on these workshops. as the business plan comes closer, the workshops have extremely been getting harder to accomplish because they consist of more calculations, research, thinking and contacting outside people. the week before business plan is known as hell week. teams will literally spend 24/7 together cramped in study rooms doing calculations and writing the 100+ page business plan together with all the research organized by citations and appendices. people will hock up on sugar and energy and camp out at the meeting room and not shower. but.. oh no! when the business plan is to be due on that monday afternoon, we are not done. the following week... oh yes! all 4 finals!!! my question is.. when do we have a break? a break to study? a break to mentally break down??
and after the finals... what next? done right? thats what finals means right?? NOPE. then the following week, we have our final presentation of our project and business plan which is a 20 minute presentation of our company and product and all the work we did over the semester in one dinky little powerpoint presentation. then it is the end. the goal we have been striving for all semester.
in this way, core is like a marathon. with a couple of extra races added in
core is like a marathon. there are the down times where really, all we have to do is the homework which is reading and problems due everyday. along with those are workshops which are mini presentations for the four different classes. some have more preparation than others and usually my team meets up everyday after class to work on these workshops. as the business plan comes closer, the workshops have extremely been getting harder to accomplish because they consist of more calculations, research, thinking and contacting outside people. the week before business plan is known as hell week. teams will literally spend 24/7 together cramped in study rooms doing calculations and writing the 100+ page business plan together with all the research organized by citations and appendices. people will hock up on sugar and energy and camp out at the meeting room and not shower. but.. oh no! when the business plan is to be due on that monday afternoon, we are not done. the following week... oh yes! all 4 finals!!! my question is.. when do we have a break? a break to study? a break to mentally break down??
and after the finals... what next? done right? thats what finals means right?? NOPE. then the following week, we have our final presentation of our project and business plan which is a 20 minute presentation of our company and product and all the work we did over the semester in one dinky little powerpoint presentation. then it is the end. the goal we have been striving for all semester.
in this way, core is like a marathon. with a couple of extra races added in
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
mentor
Last night, or more like this morning, I had a nice long talk with one of my friends. I haven't had a real heart to heart in a long time but I really felt like I had to get stuff off my chest and we shared and talked for so long that we didn't realize that it was 4 am already. that's the best feeling.
After talking with this sister, I realized a couple of things.
I have this issue with money and relationships. Ever since I was young, I always gave money to friends. I wouldn't think of it as paying people to be my friends, but I would buy cookies or chips for them at lunchtime. Now, I tend to just spoil people with gifts and meals. I've come to realize that this is because of insecurities in my friendships and relationships. I never thought it was wrong to want to spend the money I had on those I liked. Even my parents would criticize me but for much less things, like buying a $30 birthday present for someone. Once I came to college, I came to realize that people didn't need to spend money to really enjoy each other. As much as I realize that eating is a very common fellowship to do, especially for us BU girls, I realized that we don't have to be fancy and eat 5 star restaurants, though sometimes that's not bad. I need to become a better stewardess of money and learn to enjoy friends without having the need to spend money.
I also realized that I may need a spiritual mentor. Someone who could help me with my struggles and especially help me to grow as a Christian woman. I already have one person in my mind. In reality though, I don't know if I have time or if she will even say yes so I don't know if I should try or not. I'm very confused these days.
I need to learn how to pray more emotionally and passionately. After spring break, I realized, Korean Americans are too prideful. Humble us God. Rub some dirt on our face. Make us realize that we are not that cool.. we buy fake coach purses for goodness sake.
After talking with this sister, I realized a couple of things.
I have this issue with money and relationships. Ever since I was young, I always gave money to friends. I wouldn't think of it as paying people to be my friends, but I would buy cookies or chips for them at lunchtime. Now, I tend to just spoil people with gifts and meals. I've come to realize that this is because of insecurities in my friendships and relationships. I never thought it was wrong to want to spend the money I had on those I liked. Even my parents would criticize me but for much less things, like buying a $30 birthday present for someone. Once I came to college, I came to realize that people didn't need to spend money to really enjoy each other. As much as I realize that eating is a very common fellowship to do, especially for us BU girls, I realized that we don't have to be fancy and eat 5 star restaurants, though sometimes that's not bad. I need to become a better stewardess of money and learn to enjoy friends without having the need to spend money.
I also realized that I may need a spiritual mentor. Someone who could help me with my struggles and especially help me to grow as a Christian woman. I already have one person in my mind. In reality though, I don't know if I have time or if she will even say yes so I don't know if I should try or not. I'm very confused these days.
I need to learn how to pray more emotionally and passionately. After spring break, I realized, Korean Americans are too prideful. Humble us God. Rub some dirt on our face. Make us realize that we are not that cool.. we buy fake coach purses for goodness sake.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
A new leaf
I'm trying this new thing. Morning prayer. Everyday (except Sunday), 7 am prayer. A group of us go to CAS and have a daily devotion and group prayer. I thought the idea at first was ludicrous seeing as I have 12 pm class and wished so much not to have 8am core classes.
I went through my first week last week. It actually... was really nice. To wake up and go and talk with God and just to be up and running so early. It feels good for the soul although I am physically tired. Although, it's nice to have people to share that with and who keep you accountable.
Half the mornings, I woke up groggy and just guilted my way to going to prayer. "If you think you're tired, think how tired Jesus was when he carried the cross. Did he have a choice?" Ouch...
I can only hope to keep this new lifestyle going. making myself go to sleep before 1:30 (today is an exception) and getting 5-6 hrs of sleep a day. It started the worst week for me since I had a major presentation last Friday and four midterms this week. But a guy in the group said that time with God can't always be convenient for us. We need to make an effort to want to grow spiritually and why not start off your day with a big heap of Jesus with some OJ on the side. I'd like one order of that please!
I went through my first week last week. It actually... was really nice. To wake up and go and talk with God and just to be up and running so early. It feels good for the soul although I am physically tired. Although, it's nice to have people to share that with and who keep you accountable.
Half the mornings, I woke up groggy and just guilted my way to going to prayer. "If you think you're tired, think how tired Jesus was when he carried the cross. Did he have a choice?" Ouch...
I can only hope to keep this new lifestyle going. making myself go to sleep before 1:30 (today is an exception) and getting 5-6 hrs of sleep a day. It started the worst week for me since I had a major presentation last Friday and four midterms this week. But a guy in the group said that time with God can't always be convenient for us. We need to make an effort to want to grow spiritually and why not start off your day with a big heap of Jesus with some OJ on the side. I'd like one order of that please!
Monday, February 2, 2009
Summer or Winter
Which would you rather want? A nice cabin in the mountains for a time to getaway by the fireplace during the winter and go hit up the slopes or a nice beach house by the sun and water and go swimming whenever you want?
Both have their pros and cons. I've struggled with this choice since I am an avid snowboarder yet I do love the occasional swim at the beach. When I get older, I figure I won't be able to snowboard anymore though but also, being in the sun too much will give me skin cancer and make my skin a leathery material. I can either enjoy the nature and quietness or the warmth and ocean waves.
What do you think?
Both have their pros and cons. I've struggled with this choice since I am an avid snowboarder yet I do love the occasional swim at the beach. When I get older, I figure I won't be able to snowboard anymore though but also, being in the sun too much will give me skin cancer and make my skin a leathery material. I can either enjoy the nature and quietness or the warmth and ocean waves.
What do you think?
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Why I Love Boston
Boston is the best city to be in if you love sports. Red Sox rip on the field, Bruins dominate the ice, Celtics own the courts, and Patriots (usually) dominate the grass. Not only are our sports' teams awesome (Congrats Celtics-NBA champs 08), our fans are crazy too. This is how TD BankNorth became "The Jungle" and Sox fans became known as "Red Sox Nation." Outsiders may find it annoying and crazy, but I think of it as passion. Only will you find these zealous Boston fans rioting in Kenmore square in the wee hours of the night when the Red Sox won the world series.
I love New York???!!! Heck no! I love Boston cause it's awesome. It has the excitement of a city yet not all the craziness of the ant race in New York. In this way, you can enjoy the calmness and beauty of the place. There is much history lying in the area and much history being created as well.
There are 40+ colleges in or surrounding Boston. That gives all the more incentive to attend one of these fine schools because not only can you make friends with your classmates, you can easily mingle with other campuses as well (Hey, who wouldn't want to meet the next Bill Gates at Harvard?). You can travel to Harvard and rub John Harvard's left foot for good luck. You can go see the gorgeous campus of Boston College (wonder why it is called Boston College when it is located in Chestnut Hill?). You can check out the musical talents of upcoming stars at Berklee then walk over to Chinatown for some dimsum. My point is, everything in Boston is so accessible and closeby that the city is your oyster to explore. It is full of little hole in the walls and nice fancy smancy restaurants as well. The more "real" celebrities grew up in this area, including Mark Wahlberg, Matt Damon, Jay Leno, and Ben Affleck.
Only cons I can tell of this haven are: the tee and the parking and the lack of nightlife or 24/7 places. Other than that, can't say much else. Boston is so cozy.
On these cold winter days like today, some clam chowda would be wicked nice.
I love New York???!!! Heck no! I love Boston cause it's awesome. It has the excitement of a city yet not all the craziness of the ant race in New York. In this way, you can enjoy the calmness and beauty of the place. There is much history lying in the area and much history being created as well.
There are 40+ colleges in or surrounding Boston. That gives all the more incentive to attend one of these fine schools because not only can you make friends with your classmates, you can easily mingle with other campuses as well (Hey, who wouldn't want to meet the next Bill Gates at Harvard?). You can travel to Harvard and rub John Harvard's left foot for good luck. You can go see the gorgeous campus of Boston College (wonder why it is called Boston College when it is located in Chestnut Hill?). You can check out the musical talents of upcoming stars at Berklee then walk over to Chinatown for some dimsum. My point is, everything in Boston is so accessible and closeby that the city is your oyster to explore. It is full of little hole in the walls and nice fancy smancy restaurants as well. The more "real" celebrities grew up in this area, including Mark Wahlberg, Matt Damon, Jay Leno, and Ben Affleck.
Only cons I can tell of this haven are: the tee and the parking and the lack of nightlife or 24/7 places. Other than that, can't say much else. Boston is so cozy.
On these cold winter days like today, some clam chowda would be wicked nice.
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